Conspiracy theory

I’ve fallen down a very peculiar rabbit hole of late. Maybe it’s the child abuse scandal rocking the establishment and police forces around the country. Perhaps it’s my own brush with medicine that has made me sicker, and ailments  – nothing much on their own, but taken together more serious perhaps – that continue to plague me that no professional will take seriously. Perhaps it’s my own explorations of (basic) quantum physics and a growing obsession with the multiverse, philosophy, free will and psychology have made me question everything I thought I knew. I’ve started to believe David Icke. Not everything. But the more I read, the more it makes sense, although even I will admit his lizard shapeshifter theory is stretching things a bit. But the satanic rituals, the mind control, the cover-ups and establishment backed conflict – I’m starting to get curiouser and curiouser.

I realise that by hanging my hat to this particular hook, I’m in danger of losing any shred of credibility I may have once had. Take the interview with Willow and and Jaden Smith yesterday. Scoffed at by the mainstream press, I recognised fragments of what they said as having to do with quantum theory and philosophy – later qualified by a philosopher in this article in Vice Magazine –  and yet because most people didn’t get it, it was largely dismissed as new age twaddle. But my thoughts were: these kids, over-privileged though they evidently are, may also be party to more privileged information. Just because an ideology doesn’t align with your own limited world view, it doesn’t mean it’s wrong. You just might not have all the information. Didn’t Galileo prove this when he tried to prove the earth went round the sun? Granted Smith senior is a known Scientologist, making good company with professional wack-job Tom Cruise and John Travolta (implicated, interestingly enough, in a sex abuse scandal of his own.) But it’s funny how many people with power in the world are attracted by these strange pseudo-religions that promise the key to existence for those with enough money to pay for them. Call them the Illuminati. Call them what you want. But perhaps there’s something in it after all.

No, seriously, hear me out. The world isn’t all that it appears to be. It is both at once more strange and more predictable. Many people place an inordinate faith in either the abstract – religion for example, or the concept of freedom of speech, which becomes, it seems, more fluid with every passing day; or the concrete: the political system, for example, or science, which by its own admission, doesn’t know everything. Ideas that are coming to the fore now – such as the holographic universe, as mentioned by the Smith siblings, and the idea of the multiverse  – are concepts so strange that even fiction writers would struggle to come up with them, and yet there is increasing evidence to suggest they exist, making what is reality and what is continuousness all the harder to pin down. At the same time, trusted institutions are patently not all they seem to be. The scale and organisation of the abuse scandal, in Westminster, the BBC, the church and elsewhere is beyond belief. It doesn’t just go to the heart of everything we stand for as a nation, it undermines the very fabric of society. Who can we trust? If Jimmy Savile, vile abuser of sick children, was the Father Christmas of my childhood, obviously no one. Suddenly, theories of satanic cults at the heart of power seem rather more plausible where infanticide is being touted as a possible evening occupation of the “Great and the Good”.  Links to the royals, as well as public figures up and down the country are becoming harder and harder to ignore. The deaths of respected figures, such as murdered Crimewatch presenter Jill Dando, who reputedly was on the brink of an expose, are now being called into question, as well as trusted institutions, such as Childline, now being called out as potential coverups for abuse, alerting the establishment to victims, ensuring a hush up. The more you read, the clearer the links become. And ex-BBC presenter Icke was calling this stuff out a long time ago. But then everyone had him pinned as a nutter.

Am I becoming paranoid? Well it’s hard not to be. The figures called in to “investigate” the scandal all have spurious links to the accused. Articles this morning pointing the finger at the establishment for a child,  abducted and killed in horrific circumstances, and never, it seems investigated, were softened on Google news throughout the day, stating current MPs’ concerns, rather than tabloid outrage. In the age of unlimited information, it’s also increasingly possible to rewrite history. Suddenly the idea of establishment-backed catastrophes seem more plausible: world powers creating disasters to remove the rights of its citizens; to provoke war; to establish more power, over oil and territory, and spread the controlling fear of fear.

How far does it stretch? Is it one big conspiracy, as Icke would have it, where links between establishment figures are forged in blood going back through the centuries, or simply a dreadful scandal that got out of hand? Call me crazy, but suddenly I don’t know anymore. Perhaps the moon is a hollow docking station and we all came from Mars. Anything seems possible in a world where univi can pop in and out of existence, and every possibility of every possibility may be happening somewhere in a universe near you. It feels like the world of my youth has been turned on its head.  But, ya know, the truth is out there. Somewhere. Perhaps multiple versions of it, in one or other dimension.

If I – or god forbid, my children –  suddenly disappear following this blog, please alert the authorities – but these days, I wouldn’t expect them to do anything much about it anyway…